What It Feels Like To Want To Die

Eloi Eloi Lama Sabacthani. I want to die repeating it over and over again. And just for that moment, I would be beautiful and loved and dignified.


Suicide Is Not A Mental Health Issue, It’s A Social Issue

I've been living in pretty much total isolation for more than a year. It's amazing what a broken mind and broken spirit can do to your body too. I'm unrecognizable. This isn't about why, its about what I can do... Continue Reading →

Update On Insurance: Who is to blame, KnowledgeOne or Great-West Life?

Either KnowledgeOne fucked me by not going back far enough when they retroactively added contract employee LTD, OR Great-West Life wants you to go on sick leave before ever trying to get help with any issue you have.

Long Term Disability: Fuck eConcordia (Re-post)

New Update: The reason why I was rejected was because when they retroactively tried to fix their error, they did not go back far enough to when I should have been granted insurance. eConcordia continues to play games with me... Continue Reading →

Thoughts on a bad day

Something is different about today. I don't know how much longer I can stand being alive. I've been thinking a lot about a few things; how secret suicides are and how we are never allowed to discuss it, how being... Continue Reading →

Bill 21: In Defense of Culture

I understand that there is a certain appeal to living in a 'secular' society, and I also understand why someone might feel uncomfortable at the sight of the hijab. I think that discomfort is misguided but comes from an honest and decent place. To ask someone to stop wearing the hijab is akin to asking them to stop being a woman, and just be a human. That's just not who we are. To be human is to believe in things that don't exist, to make our lives mean something more than they do, and to actualize our collective imaginations. Anything less is precisely inhuman.

My Nightmare @ eConcordia 4: Finally, Some Semblance of Justice & Continued Harassment

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Yesterday, I finally heard back from CNESST and they approved my complaint for psychological harassment for both series of events. I wish I could have had more information but I finally feel like I... Continue Reading →

My Nightmare @ eConcordia 3: Waiting

Part 1 Part 2 I'm still waiting for CNESST to get back to me on their decision. I really don't understand what is taking so long. I'm really getting to the point where I'm not sure I'll be able to... Continue Reading →

My Nightmare @ eConcordia 2: Court Date: Scattered Notes

Part 1 I know I don't have anything to really worry about; getting convicted of this would change almost nothing in my life. They lost their leverage when they pushed the bull about me breaching my conditions because I dared... Continue Reading →

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